I'm not supposed to.....

I have been told that..I am not supposed to

I'm not supposed to want you
I'm not supposed to care for you
and yet I spend all my time dreaming of
all that we could share....

I'm not supposed to think of you
or wonder where you've been
but no matter how hard I fight it
thoughts of you always sneak in without me knowing....

I'm not supposed to yearn so
always wishing you were here
but I hunger for your voice
and I long to draw you near....

I'm not supposed to need you
I know these things. I do
I do want to fulfill my parents wishes
And yet I can't help myself
because I fell in love with you......

Long Distance

Long Distance Love
When it hurts so bad,
Why does it feel so good?

I wish this all made sense,
I wish I understood.

Not having you here with me is tearing me up inside,
but I can't stop thinking about you no matter how hard I try.

You know how I feel about you,
and I know I want to spend the rest of my life with you,
but it's so hard to do when I can't even be next to you.
Why does it gotta be so complicated?

Loving you feels so right,
but at the same time,
knowing I can't have you keeps me awake at night.

I just want this to be simple,
I just want you here with me,
to look into your eyes,
be held in your arms...t
hen I'd truly be happy.

A Love that Hurts

I'm here slowly walking
In the street of loneliness
Remembering our time together
Until the day THEY made you wave goodbye to me

It really hurts very deep inside
My heart was sliced into pieces
Thrown into the deepest part of the ocean
And eaten by these large creatures

I tried to forget you
But I couldn't until now
I love you, that's the reason why
My love for you will never die

Now THEY made me wave goodbye to you
I am happy for them.. Because they wish comes true..
Here we are split apart..but not our Heart

Thank you for sharing me your love
Even if it is not forever

Why Do I Still Love You?

Everything so silent…
I cant hear a voice
So many feelings..
I don’t have a choice

Crying so softly..
So I cant be heard….
Everything so confusing….
Every little word

So many nights….
Where I cant sleep
Dreaming of how much …
You mean to me

Asking myself …
Is this how I feel….
Closing my eyes
Thinking is this how I feel...

Wishing and praying …
Wanting to know..

After all I’ve been through
Why I care for you…
Why cant I let go?....

Eyes filled with tears like ocean
Heart filled with fears of loosing you…
Mind so confused ….

Why do I still love you?
Everyone told me I cant feel this way….
THEY told me to say goodbye to you..

begging me ..
Killing me with guilty….
Yet I need you to stay …

Just because You never said Goodbye to me…
You have never broken my heart
Bt left me to cry..

Because you don't want to hurt THEM..
I feel useless …..cant satisfy neither THEM or You
But i know one thing
that...
I cant say goodbye to You
Never Ever....

So please....
Dont make me say goodbye to you
So please...
dont make me say goodbye to him...


So please dont ask me why do I still love you?
because i dont knw myself Why Do I Still Love You?????

I'll Leave This World Loving You

I'll Leave This World Loving You

Walk away leave with my blessing
Once in a while let me hear from you
If we never meet again
before my life is over

I'll leave this world loving you

You can take everything but my memories
For they're good ones
and they'll see me through

If we never meet again
I'll love you forever
I'll leave this world loving you

You were mine for a time

and I'm thankful Oh,
but life will be so lonely without you

If we never meet again this side of Heaven
I'll leave this world loving you

If we never meet again this side of Heaven
I'll leave this world loving you.

Living in Our Memory

Living in our memory!

Sitting in my bedroom alone
Listening to songs we used to listen to
Thinking back to when we met
Thinking how much I really miss you

Looking at our photo that I saved in my heart
Tears fill my eyes like ocean
Looking at how happy we were … How I didn’t realise

I miss everything… from talking to fighting
To giggling to Crying
I try to forget but I cant

__ Years since we met…
Its gone so fast
Yet it still feels like yesterday,
since we were living our perfect past

THEY told us our past has gone
… and that we remain apart
You told me you see me in your future..
And that I’ll always have your heart.

Those words I’ll never forget…
Because I believe every word you said.
I also believe in never- ending love,
And a love that is no longer heard.

So forever I’ll whisper.
I’ll whisper “ I Love You”.
I hope you hear me calling,
Because you know my whispers true.

And forever I’ll whisper.
I’ll whisper “ I Love You”.
And hope THEY can’t hear me calling you,
Because I know they won’t even let me whisper about You